"
Search me, O God, and know my heart;

       test me and know my anxious thoughts.

See if there is any offensive way in me,

       and lead me in the way everlasting."

Psalm 139:23

I really felt like I was about to be on top of the world... I was ready to conquer. I was quite sure that I did not need anything or anyone; all I needed was me. However, a time of stress soon came upon me and I eventually came to my knees. I prayed this prayer from David, really believing that I had no offensive way and no impure motives.

God quickly showed me otherwise.

Just for the record, watch out for the things you pray because it seems you may find out some unexpected things about yourself.

I found that I have areas in my life that I have not let go. I recognized an unsurrendered pride,  a lot of buried anger, and a locked up heart.

I was then asking the glooming question of "How do I surrender these thing???" I have "surrendered" these areas of my life so many times, so why are they still issues?

The conclusion? Well, I found that surrendering things is not something I do only once. It's not something that I do and is gone forever. I have to surrender everything every moment of every day. It's a pressing trial that I will face everyday.

It's a lesson I've heard many times, though I have 'til now to experience it.

This is the song of the week:

I'm giving you my heart, and all that is within

I lay it all down for the sake of you my King

I'm giving you my dreams, I'm laying down my rights

I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new life

Chorus:

And   I    surrender all to you, all to you

And   I    surrender all to you, all to you

Verse 2:

I'm singing You this song, I'm waiting at the cross

And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss

For the sake of knowing You for the glory of Your name

To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain

=)

In His Grace,

Elisa